How is 2017 starting off for you? I feel like I just ran into the new year without even blinking. Between moving from Indiana to New York at the end of 2016 and then trying to settle in, my head is still spinning.
So, if you feel like your 2017 is off to a crazy start, you’re in good company!
I know I’m a few weeks late on the whole “New Year’s Resolution” thing, but this is the first time I’ve had a chance to sit down and actually think about it. With all the craziness of the move and then the holidays, it’s been difficult to let my heart be at rest.
Now that all of that is behind me, so I can start thinking about 2017. 🙂
I actually really enjoy this time of year and the time I take to think about life. January just seems like a great month to give yourself a “fresh start” or to let yourself “wipe the slate clean.” It’s also a great time to think about how you want to grow in the coming months. This is my favorite part.
At first, I wasn’t sure if I should pick any goals for this year because we just moved. (Moving kind of makes you start over whether or not you pick that as your goal.) But, since I love to learn and I can’t help but try to grow, I decided to just pick one goal.
My goal for 2017 is to learn to make God my rest… regardless of whatever else is going on around me.
Psalm 62:1-2 actually inspired this goal. These verses say,
“For God alone my soul waits in silence,
from Him comes my salvation.
He only is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.” (ESV)
The word “alone” in Psalm 62:1 stresses the point that God is “our only reliable hope” (ESV Study Bible). He is the only one our souls should wait for/rest in.
The NIV actually uses the word “rest” instead of “wait” in Psalm 62:1. It says it like this,
“Truly, my soul finds rest in God…”
Doesn’t that sound wonderful? To have your soul find rest in God?
I think that sounds amazing, but I also think that is far from the truth in my life sometimes. Between the move and now pausing to think, I’ve been realizing just how much my rest has not been in God. I mean, I think it is and I say it is, but when push comes to shove… it really isn’t true.
Sometimes I try to my make my husband my rest… but this only works as long as we never disagree, miscommunicate, or argue.
Other times I try to make my kids my rest… this always goes well.
I try to make my personal alone time my rest… but seeing as I never have any, I’m not sure how well this works. 😉
So, if you put it all together… I’ve been making my rest dependent on never having a cross word with my husband, having perfect days with my boys, and then having all the alone time I need.
And I wonder why my soul has not been at rest lately… 🙂
I know I just exaggerated a little, but this whole concept has made me stop and think. How often do we as moms depend on getting along with our husbands for our hearts to be okay? How often do we rely on everything going well with our kids for our souls to be at peace? And how much do we fall apart when our precious alone time (or sleep) is interrupted?
I know my answers are not what I want them to be, and that’s why I want this year to look different.
I’ve committed to keeping Psalm 62:1-2 before me for the entire year. I want to know it so well that it becomes a part of me. I want to learn what it is to have my soul, the deepest part of me, to find rest in God.
I want to say along with the Psalmist,
“Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from Him.
Truly He is my rock and my salvation;
He is my fortress, I will never be shaken.” (NIV)